I’m so tired of doing crap for other people. I mean, especially during the week days where it’s like, read this book, do these problems, write this down. But then the weekends are the same. Wash these dishes, clean your room — you all know how it is.
I want to spend my free time on me, whether that means reading or sitting on my ass watching paint dry, just because I can.
The season finale, Epitaph One, literally made me cry. I can’t remember exactly why, though. It might’ve been Whiskey/Claire’s “Was I my best?” line. And that one scene Topher had was pretty intense too. I was surprised he turned crazy. But, aren’t “genius and madness two sides of the same coin?” The fact that the idea of brainwashing hordes of people intrigued him rather than sickening him was, well, why I like his character. It wasn’t out of greed for power that the idea appealed to him, it was just a pure scientific/intellectual curiosity. He literally says the idea is “brilliant,” then goes, “Why didn’t I think of that?”
Too bad it was your idea, Topher. Upon realizing this, he goes back to being crazy; I guess out of the guilt for pretty much destroying the human race.
I think Epitaph One (also Two?) got an award though, so to give the other episodes another chance, I’ll just say Briar Rose. Partly because Alan Tudyk plays a crazy stoner. But the whole backdrop of the Sleeping Beauty story with Echo/Caroline and Paul was neat. The metaphor made a good fit. What was even better, though, was that they didn’t end up together. Paul was supposed to be the shining knight, Echo the sleeping princess, the Dollhouse as the castle he had to rescue her from. Theeen Alan Tudyk realizes how badass he is and turns out to be a psycho killer, not a goofy stoner. Echo (now brainwashed) ends up with the bad guy and the knight in shining armor fails. The ending was perfect, with Tudyk and Echo escaping the Dollhouse, him saying, “I told you I’d rescue you.” Then she says something along the lines of, “I knew you would…my prince.”
Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now.
I’m pretty content right now. IB can be frustrating, and sometimes I get annoyed by parents or chores or whatever, but it’s never a big deal.
Because I’m cynical. This is usually the smiley I use in chat when someone says something I think is stupid, but I don’t want to say so. It’s like my fall back. It’s only slightly relevant, but I feel like there’s a lot of things I just smile and nod to now-a-days. No use getting into petty arguments.
Day Five(ish): Six things you wish you’d never done.
1. I wish I had gotten better grades? i.e., I wish I hadn’t blown all my time way back when.
2. Wish I hadn’t dated certain people — not because they likeomgbrokemyheart but because looking back, these were just stupid decisions that I didn’t think all the way through. But they’ve also made me who I am, which is cool.
3. I wish I hadn’t become friends with some people. I think I’ve pretty much broken away from the people I just don’t want to socialize with, but gosh, if only I had this foresight back in middle school.
4. Oh, God, I almost forgot. I wish I hadn’t gotten so weird in 7th grade.
5. I wiiiishhh….uhhh, sometimes I regret delving into the Wheel of Time series. Jesus Christ, is it long.
“Come, my friends,
’Tis not too late to seek a newer world.
Push off, and sitting well in order smite
The sounding furrows; for my purpose holds
To sail beyond the sunset, and the baths
Of all the western stars, until I die.”—Ulysses, Tennyson
so scary and, except for a couple parts, so accurate
Your Existing Situation
"Outgoing but unpredictable and unstable. Likes things to go her way, otherwise she becomes agitated, indecisive, and fake in her activities."
Your Stress Sources
"Needs to meet people who have the same high principals and values as himself, but finds the need unfulfilled. her need to feel dominate and superior leaves her feeling isolated and does not allow for her to give freely of himself. she would like to surrender and let go, but sees that as a weakness she must not give in to. Holding back will allow her to stand out for the crowd and earn a higher status, recognized by others as unique and important."
Your Restrained Characteristics
His confidence is low but she is unable to admit that is the reason for her avoidance of conflict. Feels it is a situation out of her control and she is making the best of it.
"Although she feels isolated and alone, she is afraid of forming deep, meaningful relationships. Is conceited and is easily offended."
Feels as if too many walls and obstacles are standing in her way and that she is being forced to make compromises. she needs to put her own needs on hold for the time being.
Your Desired Objective
"Has a strong desire to contribute and influence others, but it can make her restless. she is driven by her desires and hopes. Enjoys a wide range of activities, but she may spread herself to thin taking on too much."
Your Actual Problem
"Feeling unimportant in this current situation, and is looking for different conditions where she will be able to better prove her worth and importance."
Day One: Ten things you want to say to ten different people right now. Day Two: Nine things about yourself. Day Three: Eight ways to win your heart. Day Four: Seven things that cross your mind a lot. Day Five: Six things you wish you’d never done. Day Six: Five people who mean a lot (in no order whatsoever) Day Seven: Four turn offs. Day Eight: Three turn ons. Day Nine: Two smileys that describe your life right now. Day Ten: One confession.
“Gratitude: an imaginary emotion that rewards an imaginary behavior, ‘altruism.’ Both imaginaries are false faces for selfishness, which is a real and honest emotion.”—Heinlein, To Sail Beyond the Sunset
A character should not be incredibly attractive, a badass/have He-Man like strength, a genius with languages, and super charismatic at the same time. A fear of spiders does not count as a major weakness, either.
This sounds petty, I know, but it’s surprising how many teenagers you find that write and make the main character the most perfectest human being ever. Even when I actually have the time and inspiration to write, I always make sure my characters are balanced. Maybe it’s just because I hate Mary/Gary Sues and they’ve become a pet peeve of mine, but it seems like anyone who enjoys reading would hate such idiotic characters too.